At this writing there are only 90 shopping days until Christmas. Unlike the past few years I really need to get focused and start shopping NOW. That way if we do have lay offs for the winter (my line of work is seasonal) at least I will have that done and not hanging over my head.
Work – I am so stressed out at the office. The boss resigned last weekend and this week I had to juggle managing production in 2 territories/cities. I think I finally figured out the best way to do this but I am still wired and hoping it works. I hate to fail so I’ve lost sleep and given myself a multitude of tension headaches trying to cover everything…and knowing that there are things that fell through the cracks that could not be helped. Facing that I am one person and it will work itself out isn’t easy sometimes.
My dad – I’m growing concerned about him. We have him over every weekend to get him out of the house. He lives alone (my brother is living there while working out new living arrangements with his pending divorce but he is rarely around) and his health is failing. His legs have lost feeling over the years and he falls a lot but won’t go into assisted living. I know I need to check in on him more, but there is only so much time in a day and I am already stretched in so many directions. I need a clone.
Sticking with the Shrinkvivor goals so that I can get rid of this last 15 or so pounds that have hounded me for years. I know with the holidays just around the bend there is great risk of putting on weight instead of losing it. Gotta stay focused!!
My son – with the recent shooting of 2 local police officers it just makes me all the more aware of how dangerous his job is and how much I really do worry about him. Keeps my praying daily for his protection and safety.
My baby girl – her first week back of her last year of college. She is carrying her largest class load ever and is trying to work too, so she is learning very quickly about how valuable sleep is to her and has a real appreciation again for the opportunity to nap now and then.
SLEEP – I am not getting nearly enough and I need to do so. I need to make myself go to bed earlier before I run myself down and get sick. I cannot afford to be sick right now with no medical insurance and not getting payed if I am not working.
I need to get a flu shot. I’ve only failed to get one 2 times in the last 20 or so years, and both times I missed it I got the flu bad. Not taking a chance with it this year because I cannot afford the down time. I just hate having to spend the $25 right now, but I know it will be worth it.
Keeping close watch and sending out resumes even though I am working at the moment. If this job shuts down over the winter I’m going to need something and it never hurts to look. If I can find something full time with benefits, which I very much NEED, and the pay is good, I’m going to go for it. Just unnerving looking into something else new right now, not sure I am up for anymore change at the moment.
Me time – I need to find a chunk of time every day just to veg and let myself relax. The pressures of life keep trying to worm their way in and take over, and I cannot let the happen. I need to give myself 30 minutes a day to either nap, read, crochet…something just for myself, uninterrupted.